14feb2016

haritu aku jumpa dia
on vday
i cant stand the thought that he's gonna spend the day w her
sebab selama 5tahun dia dengan aku
and aku takde date lain selain dia selama hidup aku ni
so aku pergi jumpa dia

and bla bla bla


it was truly heaven and hell all together that weekend


my mom cried of my addictions to drugs. hmm.


and him, dia dah berubah
now 4 days after i met him
he's totally diff person
with nothing to live for
he's not the man i used to know
far worst, he's not the man he himself is
his drug addiction is far worse
thats all he thinks about
he might quit his job soon
that workaholic man i used to know giving up on his job
hes giving up on his life
that makes me so sad
why? what happened?
oh, ME happen :(

ni memang babi
aku punca
everything i have, or ever do,
was such a wreckage and despair
aku takdela sampai nak mati
tapi perasaan ni, berat sangat
dah aku nak tanggung rasa aku, sekarang aku nak kena hidup my whole life knowing im at fault for what his become
wow.

please show me the way God
please
please
it hurts so much! SAKIT! SEPI! KOSONG!
save me, save him.
aku harap memang aku ended up dgn dia
dia yang aku sayang sangat
dia yang aku cinta
tapi if not
tunjuk kami jalan keluar
kalau selamanya aku macam ni
bila aku nak berbakti dekat keluarga aku?

sesungguhnya, Kau yang maha mengetahui, jadi tolong.



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